Recovery from NPD Abuse…a Journey with Many Options

Few words on this blog post, except to say that even early on something gnawed at me while incessantly googling, venting, purging, and reading blogs and forums on Narcissists, and Psychopaths and Socipaths and others on “The Spectrum”

I know enough to know that most if not all on the spectrum would have a hearty belly laugh at what I am about to lay out on the table.

It takes time but there is choice.

I’ve seen many for years now…at least three years, and some who started on this journey before me continue to cling to how despicable a (Name your Axis II Cluster B disorder) is.

What is hardest to remember is that the one thing they don’t own is our choice.

I’m not big on rainbows, butterflies, magical thinking or even some of that New Agey stuff…

I’m not talking of Kumbaya moments either but today something stirs up in me when a victim or a survivor tries to manipulate my point of view by ‘reminding me’ about everything I “must not forget”…or, what I should “remember.”

I’ve grown tired of remembering.  Why should I remember?  Why would anyone want to remember?

I’ve learned to trust myself…

What you do, how you do it, is up to you.

Maybe you need to be angry for a long time – and that’s cool…I won’t try to sway you…

Maybe you do need rainbows and butterflies or some new spiritual angle…

Whatever’s clever…

For me, in layman’s terms I think some of this is learning how to deprogram then begin to fuck with your own head in order to re-work the canvas…

Something along what I am about to share below is really what worked for me.  There is no rhyme or reason or proof that there is anything to it…but sometimes we choose certain paths because it seems the only way to get away from something that is much more overwhelming to the spirit.  Some things just are…and we choose to accept it or we don’t.

That is not to minimize suffering or invalidate an experience…I accept and agree “Life is Suffering” but we have a choice in terms of how we approach the suffering.  So, even if it’s totally bonkers…for me there was no other choice, the alternative was to remain stuck and destroyed…

I get it’s not for everyone…

As always, take what applies and leave the rest…

Even Psychopaths Need Love

I appreciate choice…it is where my power lies…